look, if any of you actually believe his shit, that’s YOUR problem…
he was a prick…and he still is a prick…I’m done with explaining myself…if I loose any of you over this bullshit…then goodbye, it was fun while it lasted! :)
I should have NEVER went out with him to begin with…he was not worth this shit…
To All You People Who Got Yourself Involved With Mine And Davids Problems:
You Have NO Idea What Went On Between Us…So You Have NO RIGHT Trying To Come Across As Some Hero Bad Mouthing Me…
I Couldn’t Take His Constant Emotonal Roller Coaster He Put Me On Everyday…I Had To Watch My Mouth Or Else He Would Get Offended Or Jeal…ous…He Kept Me On Such A Short Leash That I Hardly Could Breathe…And I Refuse To Be Kept Down To Please Him…
He Never Trusted Me…EVER…No Matter What I Did, I HAD To Explain Myself. ..”That Guy Gave You A Winky Icon…EXPLAIN YOURSELF?” AND I COULDN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
I Was Always Either Crying, Depressed, Worried, Or Pissed Off…And That Simply Isn’t What A Relationship Is Supposed To Be Built On…Yet You Call ME A Monster For Breaking Up With Him… .What Did You Expect Me To Do? String Him Along And Continue Being Unhappy? At Least I Gave Him The Respect Of Telling Him How I Felt Before It Got Any Worse…No, But That Means I’m The Bad Person Here…Because I Refused To Go Along And Pretend…I Refused To Say A Meaningless “I Love You” To Ease His Mind…FUCK THAT…My Parents Always Told Me, “It’s Best To Confess. . Even If It Will Hurt” It HAD To Be Done…Like A Band aid, The Quicker You Rip It Off…The Faster The Healing Process…
I don’t know who I am without being sad.
Lately I’ve been in a slump of sorts. I just want to be alone. Am I afraid of what will happen when I’m not alone anymore?
Yes, I’m terrified. But it’s also fucked up the way I avoid people for no reason at all. I push so many people out of my life. You could also say I don’t let many people in to begin with to even have the chance of being pushed away.
Why do I do it?
I’m just thinking aloud. Trying to sort these thoughts.
The strength of life comes from the possibility of dying.
